Wesley Gonzalez is today sharing a new single, “Change Your Circumstance”. Through his acclaimed 2020 album Appalling Human – mixed by James Greenwood (Ghost Culture, Daniel Avery, Kelly Lee Owens) and released via Moshi Moshi Records – he cast his songwriting net over issues of the self, social anxiety and psychotherapy. With “Change Your Circumstance”, Gonzalez again looks inwards, to question how he sees his role in the world.
He explains: “Change Your Circumstance was originally recorded during the last session for my 2020 album Appalling Human. As there was also a song called Change on the album, and it was initially much longer and seemed a tad unfinished, I let it remain in my iTunes to gather digital dust. Over the pandemic I rediscovered the track and found a fondness for it that I previously didn’t have.
The song was written about my friend expecting a baby. It freaked me out to be honest. He’d asked me to be godfather and I found it scarily grown up. The verses are more directed at myself and questioning whether I even want any traditional grown-up role in life, or asking how someone could feel mentally stable enough to ever bring a child into a world I felt such resentment for.
The line “Hell is the heaven that we all deserve” comes from a live performance I did at Green Man festival, absolutely off my nut. I curled into a ball and shouted “hell is the heaven we all deserve” for a few minutes, it came seemingly from nowhere and stuck in my guts for months.
The video accompanying the track was made by London artist Josie Rae Turnbull working elements of video collage and colour alteration, taking inspiration from a day out we had together to the Bruce Nauman exhibition the Tate recently had on, when we were allowed to visit art galleries.”